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מחלבחד

Mon, 28 Dec 2009 22:21:25 GMT

Baby booboo head. I was gifted a new present last night. Now I just gotta figure out a name for it. I'm updating this from my new 8gb iPod touch. Woo!

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I said. . .

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 06:33:23 GMT

You're all that I have and you're all that I need
Each and every day I pray to get to know you please
I want to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry
You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there's no me
You're the air that I breathe
Sometimes the world is dark and I just can't see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I'll stand on my own two feet
Won't be brought down on one knee
Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights
Crown Heights burnin' up all through till twilight
Said, thank you to my G-d, now I finally got it right
And I'll fight with all of my heart, and all a' my soul, and all a' my might

What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
Givin' myself to you from the essence of my being
Sing to my G-d all these songs of love and healing
Want Moshiach now so it's time we start revealing

Strip away the layers and reveal your soul
Got to give yourself up and then you become whole
You're a slave to yourself and you don't even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
If you're trying to stay high then you're bound to stay low
You want G-d but you can't deflate your ego
If you're already there then there's nowhere to go
If you're cup's already full then its bound to overflow
If you're drowning in the water's and you can't stay afloat
Ask Hashem for mercy and he'll throw you a rope
You're looking for help from G-d you say he couldn't be found
Searching up to the sky and looking beneath the ground
Like a King without his Crown
Yes, you keep fallin' down
You really want to live but can't get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
Given up your pride and the you heard a sound
Out of night comes day and out of day comes light
Nullified to the One like sunlight in a ray,
Makin' room for his love and a fire gone blaze

What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
Givin' myself to you from the essence of my being
Sing to my G-d all these songs of love and healing
Want Moshiach now so it's time we start revealing

See I lift up my eyes where my help come from
And I seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!

Look to the sky where my help come from
Seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!
You feel it in your chest
You keep my mind at ease and my soul at rest
You're not vexed
Look to the sky where my help come from
Seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!

See I lift up my eyes where my help come from
And I seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!
You feel it in your chest
You keep my mind at ease and my soul at rest
You're not vexed

Why don't you just fly, fly to me?

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 03:06:40 GMT

I'm feeling a little out of place this holiday season. Probably the worst Holiday season I've ever had. It's usually something that happens. I learn to forgive, and forget. I'm missing something right now. Maybe If I could hop out of this rock I'm under..

"Oh mama what have I gone and done?
With all these years that I've been gone,
My life changed me way too fast.
I don't know if I could last.

Help me find my way, and mama save me.
Help me find today, mama please come and save me, Oh.

Oh mama if you could've only seen,
Everything I've done and where I've been.
If only one thing I would ask,
Why did you let me grow up so goddamn fast?

Help me find my way, and mama save me.
Help me find today, mama please come and save me, Oh.

There's nothing more that you can do.
It's gone beyond what you can help me through.
An emptyness has covered me.
Oh mama come and save me.

Help me find my way, and mama save me.
Help me find today, mama please come and save me, Oh.
Help me find my way, and mama save me.
Help me find today, mama please come and save me, Oh.

There's nothing more that you can do.
It's gone beyond what you can help me through.
An emptyness has covered me.
Oh mama come and save me.
Oh mama come and save.
Oh save me... no!
Oh please mama save..."

[silence]

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 06:32:02 GMT

Matisyahu live the other night was rediculous. An Eight minute beat-box, Two stage dives, A sick set-list, and love in the air. Kosha Dillz. He is one of my favorite artists, and I can't stop listening.

Sabres game on Friday, I am seriously stoked for this one!!

It's snowing like a Mother! I think it's that time of year do to some quality ice skating, and hopefully I'll be good enough to join a hockey team.

About to get some music and shit thrown on my computer. Can't wait for 2010.

Oh yeah, I got a Snuggie today.

Fuckity

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 04:49:51 GMT

I need to GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE. NOW.

Reaching you and you're not there, you never were
So I sit down on these steps again
In the cell of my mind I'll try to be
Broken pieces that I thought would be

Hey! I don't wanna go home
Hey! I don't wanna go home
Home

Lookin' through another day with empty eyes
I don't know if I want to laugh or lie awake
And I hope that someday I will find true peace
Now I go off with a taste of fantasy

Hey! I don't wanna go home
Hey! I don't wanna go home
Hey! I don't wanna go home
Hey! I don't wanna go home
Home

Hey! I don't wanna go home
Hey! I don't wanna go home
Hey! I don't wanna go home
Hey! I don't wanna go home
Home

Duoz

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 04:11:56 GMT

I just pouted to my parents for the past couple of hours about how bad I want a pug puppy. I'm gonna make this happen! MUAHAHAHAHA :-D

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 07:54:20 GMT

Helo Lj. Coronoa is delicious. Beyond any words. I am uploading music onto my phone. And drinking Coronas. But before I upload music to my phone, I need to rip CD's to my hard drive. Or download music illegally and have a very un-organized folder of music. Either way, for the amount of music I currently have on my computer, It's probably a good idea to purchase a larger memory card for my phone. 5+ hours of music on my phone is something I really do like! haha

Florida is definetly happening soon. I can now fully enjoy that DAY, when I know I will be in complete bliss, driving countless hours towards beauty. This is what I have been looking for my whole life. A new journey to seclude myself with.

I cannot wait for this week to be over, and I cannot wait for the holidays, yet alone 2010.

Why is everybody always chasing me?

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 09:10:32 GMT

*smokes some weed*

I love Matisyahu. He is so true to his words, it's sick. I'm in the biggest Reggae mood ever, and It's great. It's like when I would get into some crazy techno phase. I'm telling you, it's moving, especially when I feel my soul start dancing.

Back to some NHL. . .

17 days till my Sabres vs. Toronto Leafs game, who battled earlier tonight.
(1 week till Matisyahu)

Maybe in time I'll appreciate it! hold on. . . HOLD ON! We'll be with you soon. . .

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 08:48:52 GMT

I need something to happen. Quick.

I have a trip to California waiting for me, and I still need something to come up in the time I am trying to go. How is there NOTHING going on in L.A. ? Well, I'm sure there is. But this trip needs to be huge. And if I forget about it, it will suck. I look everyday on the internet hoping something is happening out there that catches my eye. I have a funny feeling I'll be going to Cali with someone and it will be just medicore. I want this trip to blow me away. I want to impress my self and have an amazing time out there, and forget about any demons that have been haunting me. This is a time for me to organize my thoughts.

Time to sit down and formulate a plan of action for the future.

Thanksgiving this week. I wish I had family to spend time with on this Thankful holiday. Alas, I do not.

=(

"She makes it sweeter than the sun
I get too tight I come undone
I bow my head to confess
The temple walls are made of flesh
Runs up my arms til Im on track
Itches my skin right off of my back
Ill heal your wounds
Ill set you free
Im jesus christ on ecstacy"

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 01:55:53 GMT

Godsmack released their latest single "Whiskey Hangover" in mid-June which reached #1 on the Billboard Hot Mainstream Rock Tracks chart, scoring their 5th #1 single on that chart. The single also reigns as a record-breaking 17th Top 10 single for the Godsmack, extending their ownership of the most Top 10 hits in active rock history.

Cool.

my fears come alive, in this place where I once died.. . ......

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 07:55:13 GMT

MmMm... Stouffers makes some good Mac & Chee with broccoli. It's delish.

My life is currently at a pause. Just work, work, work. Josh picked up a job at J.C. Pennys. Congrats brother man!

These next months are very crucial for me to proceed with some of my goals.

I hate SoCo.

Livejournal is sometimes boring.

Oh wait, only my posts are.

BOOOOOOOOOO

I just need to, Re-align. . .

Fault & Fracture

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 23:03:59 GMT

So today I feel as if I am kind of unintersting. I wish I had a lovely female willing to take ME out to dinner. I'm the one who enjoys taking others out, alas when was the last time I had MY dinner paid for? I am feeling lonely tonight. I wish I had someone calling me to ask me out on a date. . . I need 2 arms. =|

Constant resitance. . .

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 07:33:05 GMT

I am in a glorious mood. FUCK I need my own appartment already!!! Time to do something good for my self. . .

from you. .. .

I've wasted all this time. . .

I'm madly in anger with you

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 07:54:18 GMT

I don't know what it could possibly be, but my friends are the shit. I don't like to consider any friend of mine more important than any others. I try to reason and think positive for each un-positive situation. I couldn't imagine living another life, other than your own. I love who I am for sure, and I love my friends for being friends. And of course, any human may make their own life better, it's the path they choose which turns you into who you are. As long as it's positive and healthy, there is an unlimited amount of goals any one person can accomplish. For now on, I want to accomplish some of MY own goals, and make my life more enjoyable!

But as of now, I still love life. SMILES!

Sister, sister, brother, brother.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 02:24:12 GMT

The other day was a moment for me personally I'll never forget. The marriage of two really good friends. I've never had any friends of mine really get married, so it was new to me. The excitement of watching them walk down the aisle had me so happy, and nervous all at the same time. I'll never erase the image out of my head watching everyone, watching them. Goodness!

Everyone had a great time it seems. I did. I had an amazing time. The reception literally kicked my ass with lots of dancing, eating and drinking. Michael's brother gave a kick-ass speech. Sarah's friends are fucking CRAZY.

The hotel scene was a story not to be told...

White Castle burgers are so cute!

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 05:42:13 GMT

I work at a fun place. I gotta say, the nutso guys that I work with are a blast. Not to mention a LOT of good looking girls. . . The one kid calls me Captin Puffertins!!!

The winter is coming. This summer sucked ass. And that sucks. I hate snow. I can't wait for California to shine on my face everyday.

Godsmack was this past weekend. Last show of the CRUEFEST. It was unbelievable.

Review to come.

And I know what my next Tattoo is going to be!

I walk dead or alive...

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 08:16:34 GMT

FIRST OF ALL, I'm feeling O.K. with my Whiskey Hangover.

Bar scene tonight with Antonio, Andris, Joe and a couple others. What a great night. I also shot a 2+ 38 at Shadow Pines. Amazing round of golf today... I hit shots today that Tiger Woods would never hit. I was on my game!!!! Amazing night.

Godsmack is this weekend. After waiting 6 months for this concert, I think I'm finally ready for it. I have a feeling this is going to be the best damn concert I have/will ever attend. Oh man, I'm so pumped. I'm so pumped indeed, that I am willing to challenge anyone saying this show will suck. Because it will be the opposite of this.

WAIT, ANOTHER MINUTE CAN'T, YOU SEE WHAT THIS PAIN, HAS FUCKING DONE TO ME? I'M ALIVE...

Enoughs' Enough.

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 06:07:51 GMT

I would like to thank JETBLUE airliners and the Buffalo Bills for making my life a little bit better. An all expense paid trip to LONG BEACH, CALIFORNIA !! This is too sweet, and cannot believe I punted a football very far to win this. All I need now, is someone to go with...

Already starting to look at hotels. Maybe I might get to play Pebble Beach after all? Hmmmm....

Godsmack in THREE weeks~!!

Why Do I Know?

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 00:41:10 GMT

I think this whole situation is insane.

?

Sevendust last night was tasty. Downtown Rochester; outside.

Free golf at THREE different courses is also tasty. Shadow Pines is a great place. And I'm starting to like the cooking process more than I already did. Great place to learn !!!

WERD

I NEED CITY OF GOD BACK. =|

wow

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 15:39:52 GMT

You are super fucking sexxxy. And had a BLAST last night.

=)

LET IT RAIIIIIIIIIIN

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 19:24:19 GMT

Terrell Owens in Tops today in Perinton, NY unveiling his new cereal. T.O. !!!! Only 5 minutes away from me.....

The Un-named feeling takes me away...

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 06:00:05 GMT

Had awesome talks about awesome stuff the other night. I think I need some fresh freshies... My legs are bleeding.

From Mr. Catullo:

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 09:56:11 GMT

Hey Guys- It's Dan Catullo, the Director & Producer of "Changes" and other Godsmack DVD's. We are currently on tour with the band on Crue Fest shooting a new film/documentary on the band. This project will be filmed over the next year and will be very special. We are looking for die hard fans and fans with interesting Godsmack stories to interview while we are out here. If you think you have an interesting story to tell that the other Godsmack fans will find interesting, please e-mail me at dan@dc3global.com

Thanks for your help!

DC

I think I qualify, and I think this is a good oppurtunity to let go. I will be drunk as a skunk for this interview, alas, talked about like it's my life. Good combination, right? I just watched 'Changes' the other night and man, can this guy direct a great fucking documentary! I will have to think about a good story about how this band has affected my life, which others can enjoy and relate to as well. Looking forward to the summer EVEN more.

IN 10, 9, 8, 7 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 23:51:34 GMT

Sitting here doing laundry waiting for this gi-normic storm to pass through Upstate, NY. Hail the size of quarters. Rain pouring sideways. Lightning strikes literally every second that passes. Tornado's RIPPING through homes. Streets FLOODED. Could this actually happen !? I remember as a really young dude, I was really scared of Thunderstorms. Now, I cannot wait for the next. It would suck to be put in a situation of death based on natural occurences.

I watched a youtube video today of something really disturbing. = ( Makes me sad, and hopes the F1 racer makes a comeback. Hang out Massa! My heart and deepest smypathy goes out.

Fresca is delicious.

So is my new cell phone.

And so is Godsmack's set list last night:

Whiskey Hangover
Faceless
Bad Religion
Straight Out Of Line
Realign
Awake
Time Bomb
Moon Baby
The Enemy
Keep Away
Speak
Voodoo
-drum jam
Whatever
Good Times Bad Times
I Stand Alone

"So want if I never want to be sober?
So what if I want to be numb all the time? Yeah...
I can't justify why I want to go slower, knowing...
Taking my time just 'aint my style..."

Godsmack on one of their biggest tours ever...

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 08:37:13 GMT

Three shows into the Crue Fest 2 tour, and Godsmack has stolen the show all three nights So far I've been told. THOSE ARE MY FUCKING BOYS! Congrats G'Smack. Cannot wait for fucking September. Never been this pumped in my life for my next SMACKING! Holy shit........ And I thought Godsmack out-performing METALLICA was something. Now It's the CRUE?!?! Who's next... fucking Black Sabbath? RUSH? Aerosmith? NINE INCH NAILS? Wowzers.....